Debbie posted this wonderful heartfelt letter on the Wheat Belly 10-Day Grain Detox Challenge private Facebook page. It was such a poignant expression of what many go through in our divorce from wheat and grains that I asked her whether I could share it with everyone on the main Wheat Belly Facebook page and the Wheat Belly Blog.
So I was thinking today about how much this is like being in a bad relationship…breaking up…getting back together….breaking up. I decided to officially break up with grain and writing to help myself over the grieving part.
You and I have been together my whole life. We grew up together and shared so many memorable moments, ones that I will never forget. Like that time when we were at Nana’s and she made her homemade pasta and sauce, served with Italian bread. Oh, and her apple pie with the crumb topping was always my favorite. Remember those movies we went to and all that popcorn and Sour Patch Kids eaten while watching them? Wow, I feel emotional just talking about those truly great times with you.
But Grain, I’ve changed. I want more out of my life than you can ever give me. I want to feel good and happy and healthy again and I want to be with someone who doesn’t raise me up, only to drop me when I am just feeling good. Grain, you’ve changed too. You seemed more wholesome and pure in our early years together. It seemed like, no matter how much time we spent together, I couldn’t get enough of you. You made me feel good! But you changed into someone I hardly recognize. You don’t make me happy anymore, and to be honest, whenever we spend time together, I feel sick afterwards. I’m sorry to say it like that, but it’s true. You are actually bringing me down and I never thought that it would come to this but I am breaking up with you.
I know, I know, you’ve heard this before, and it lasts for a while but then I see you somewhere, and I feel those pangs in my stomach again. I get weak, and I break down and go back to you, because I remember the good times and think that it can be like that again . . . but it’s not. As soon as I let you back into my life, I feel sick and unhappy and I just hate who I see when I look in the mirror. No, Grain, I am much better off without you and I truly know that now.
Please, don’t wait for me to change my mind. It is already too late for me to turn back. And don’t think that if I run into you here and there that I won’t remember all the good times we had together. But, that was the past and I have a bright future ahead of me . . . without you.
You will always stay in my memories but you will never be in my life again.
Loved you once, but it’s over.